The Flight of the Rocketman

And the music keeps going on and it makes my life complete...  I'm flying away...  -- Flying Away, performed by Moony

A loneliness that only one person can fulfill?  Really now, if we sat down and actually think about it, is this a fact?  A truth?  I think it is merely not having something that you want badly.  It is a yearning, a longing.

But, in my opinion, I've always believed in the cliche that anything we need in this world, we can find it within ourselves.  That in truth, we really do not need people...  It may sound cold and cruel, but truly, we can merely interact with people to get the basic needs that we require to sustain life but to actually need to socialize?  to actually need to be with someone?  I don't think so.  We constantly crave and yearn for that someone, yet we continue going through life, working, paying bills and watching movies.  We still listen to music, eat, sleep and crap.  We don't need people.  We have ourselves and that is enough.

But yes, when we have someone, that is one of the greatest feelings in the world.  In fact, it is the arguably the best feeling in the world.  But the joy, the elation of being in a relationship is actually gained from the affirmation that we are someone worthy of love.  That we are deserving of love.  And the truth is, so many people in this world loves us.  But the person we love is the standard in which the truth [we are worthy of love] becomes reality within our minds.  That is why if our love is not reciprocated, we feel sad, depressed and lonely. 

Everything is really simple.  Yes, go out and say "hi" to someone and if the first meeting is enough to kindle a spark of any kind; you can spend the rest of 3 weeks just trying to figure out what makes he/she tick.  And it does not even have to lead to sex, to partnership, to love; a new friend can be just as engaging.  After a while, you learn so much new things about others and about yourself.  It is a powerful sense of affirmation: I'm interesting enough to get to know.  But of course, it is the mirror effect: we only feel that way because we find the other person interesting.

The truth is, we are really trying to justify our existence in this world: through love and friendship; through relationships.  Man is truly a social creature.  Because if he weren't, he'd be just like any other animal.

So to be solitary, to seek solitude amongst all others is a good thing: get to know thyself well and fully.  But once you know yourself, then go out and share it.  Affirm it and validate it if you must but by all means, go out there and connect.  Because there is so much to know, so much to learn and so much growing waiting to happen.

Right now, I want to whine.  I want to groan.  I want to sigh.  I want to share my anger with myself for not having the strength, the confidence to share myself.  So, of course, I feel un-affirmed; invalid.  If I had only said "hello." 

But I won't go there.  I refuse.  I want to be happiness and sunshine...

I'm flying away...